Food for the soul

Well, it’s about time I wrote another post I think! Was it the last one that I said I’d try and do one each week? Anyway, the last seven weeks have been interesting and yes, that’s how old our beautiful little girl Amber is now. To be honest, it feels like I’ve had absolutely no spare time what-so-ever, as a result I haven’t really spent a whole lot of time with God. I’ve been exhausted, extremely tired, stressed out, angry, crying, yelling at the kids, yelling at Darren and also have had 2 sinus headaches, which are really intense and lasts for 24 hours, haven’t found anything that can get rid of them yet. It was last week that I realised what I was doing and how easy I had let myself get like that. Also realised the fact that I need God everyday. I can’t survive a day without Him. That revelation of receiving God’s love I had a fair while a go had slipped my mind until last week. I now realise for me to function in God’s kingdom, I need to do that everyday, but it’s not just God’s love that He’s ready to pour out into my life, it’s total peace when everything seems like it’s out of control, it’s His awesome power and presence, it’s also His amazing strength. Everything that is His, is ours. We are created in His image. I just heard a testimony of Lisa Bevere who asked Jesus into her heart, then being told by John Bevere that she was saved wondered what that meant. John said that she was in darkness and now she was in the light, her body, soul and spirit were saved and whole again and filled with light. After hearing that, Lisa asked if that meant she was healed from her sickness with food allergies, so would stop getting stomach pains all the time, so John prayed for that and Lisa was healed. We really do limit God don’t we? I know I do all the time, especially in these last weeks! All of that was available to me and I didn’t receive it. Salvation means that we’re saved from everything in this world as well as having eternal life! I do understand that I have just had our third child, but it’s amazing how it all worked out when I did spend time with God. Another thing I haven’t been doing much is meditating on the word. I wasn’t having much food for my soul. That’s another reason that scripture says the word of God is ‘living’ and why we need to walk in God’s presence, walk in the spirit and receive what ever spiritual things God has for us, because we are meant to live in a spiritual kingdom on earth. If we think about our natural life and that we have to eat and drink everyday, how much more do we need our spiritual food - God’s word and His presence everyday? We can spiritually die and how easy that can be done, as I’ve just snapped out of! I mean, I HAVE to eat at least 3 times a day (usually more than that!) and at the moment I’m drinking about 3 litres of water a day. If I compare that to how often I talk or think about God or meditate / think about His word a day, it’s pretty dismal, but I’m determined to get there! Now that I’m getting closer to God again, I’m just craving to get more of Him and to be everything He wants me to be. In those times, everything else is insignificant (food, drink, this world).